One more day, one step at a time – seek whatever help you need and hold on for tomorrow. Step. Who am I? I’m not sure I’ve ever known what that means. I prided myself on my intellect. I’m no genius, but my problem-solving ability has always served me and given me confidence. My bodyContinue reading “Losing”
Category Archives: mental health
Shutdown
Fight for the help you need. I’m going to follow some advice and write about how things feel in the moment without trying to make sense of it. My whole body feels like it’s giving up. I’m losing the ability to do basic things (physically and mentally). Mentally: I can’t find the words I need.Continue reading “Shutdown”
What goes up…
Despite my negative experiences, if you’re experiencing a crisis, I urge you to seek all the professional (and emotional) help you can. Even the negative experiences can save your life as they have for me. Since my last post I crashed hard. I’ve been to both the Emergency Department at the hospital and a MentalContinue reading “What goes up…”
Hallucinations?
I’m gonna preface by saying I don’t think what I’m experiencing is normal. I don’t know if this is something I should seek help for or just be curious about. Please comment if you have any insight…A lot is happening to me at the moment that I don’t yet fully understand. I’ve been alone forContinue reading “Hallucinations?”
Unfiltered
Please, please, please keep reaching out to mental health professionals and helplines if, like me, you can’t do this alone. You will find someone who gets it even if you have to push through several options. The barriers to help suck. The cost, the waiting. Don’t give up–there is a way through this. The followingContinue reading “Unfiltered”
Trauma
This is going to be messy and unorganized, but unfiltered. I know there are people who have had it far worse than I could ever imagine and I feel deeply for anyone who’s gone through any kind of trauma. However, one of the biggest sources of pain and suffering that I see and experience inContinue reading “Trauma”
Revelations
I’d like to preface this by saying that I’m not a mental health or medical professional. If you’ve experienced any of the issues I talk about, please seek professional help. What I describe below has not been officially diagnosed for me, but is based on a lot of reading and introspection. Below are my lessonsContinue reading “Revelations”
(Not) Ménière’s
Update: I believe I’ve figured out the cause of the hearing and vertigo issues I mentioned in previous posts. It seems like the simple answer is a weak immune system. It appears that through years of ear problems and stress, the symptoms of temporary hearing loss and vertigo come whenever I have had some kindContinue reading “(Not) Ménière’s”
Life
Written in July 2025: I have a rare month with nothing to worry about. I did well in my first semester, and I won’t know what I’m studying next semester until it begins. I’ve had a lot of time to think. All this time off means for the first time since my child was born,Continue reading “Life”
Step…
A raw account of suicidal thoughts during a mental health crisis, the struggle to keep going for family, and taking life one step at a time.
Control
In my last posts, I described a brief mental health crisis I went through. The lesson I’ve had to re-learn is that I need to re-shift my focus to what’s in my control. I need to take full ownership of my situation because no one else can or will. It’s nothing personal; it’s just thatContinue reading “Control”
Why
I recently went through a mental health crisis. While I encourage you to follow the ideas in this post I wrote previously., I’m going to explain why those resources failed me in the hope that someone who works in mental health sees this and has the power and motivation to do something about it. IContinue reading “Why”
