This time I’ve been stretched to my absolute limit. In April/May, I had the opportunity to take breaks whenever I needed despite the relentless workload and deadlines. This time, I’m on my final practical teaching experience, so I need to be prepared and present five days a week. Everything was looking okay in the run-up.Continue reading “Breaking”
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Raw
Nothing left to give.Overstretched.Darkness.Pain. Dissociation.Collapse.Decompensation.One more day.One more light.
Trauma
This is going to be messy and unorganized, but unfiltered. I know there are people who have had it far worse than I could ever imagine and I feel deeply for anyone who’s gone through any kind of trauma. However, one of the biggest sources of pain and suffering that I see and experience inContinue reading “Trauma”
Revelations
I’d like to preface this by saying that I’m not a mental health or medical professional. If you’ve experienced any of the issues I talk about, please seek professional help. What I describe below has not been officially diagnosed for me, but is based on a lot of reading and introspection. Below are my lessonsContinue reading “Revelations”
Suicidal thoughts
This is my recent personal experience. It’s going to come across as self-centred and dark. However, I’m sharing it so people can understand and get into the mindset of someone going through suicidal thoughts. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, seek professional help immediately. This time is different. Last time I was in despair andContinue reading “Suicidal thoughts”
Slow
IntroSometimes you need to say no and cut down. This will allow you to do fewer things better. This has been my journey over the past two years. OverloadI had two jobs and was studying for a diploma. I was also raising a child. I was consuming as much ‘educational’ content as possible. It soundsContinue reading “Slow”
Ménière’s?
In my previous post, I mentioned that work and separation from quality family time were making me sick. I meant this literally. Doctors suspect I may have Ménière’s Disease. The word ‘disease’ always sounds scary. In this case, it’s nothing life-threatening, but it is a pain in the ass. The definition and diagnosis of Meniere’sContinue reading “Ménière’s?”
Fracturing
It feels like I’m falling apart. A fracture to the brain. Not myself…not me. My judgement’s off. So close to the dream yet so close to losing everything. So much to live for. So many people to help, but I must help myself. I’ve been in survival mode for so long I’m running out ofContinue reading “Fracturing”
Chaos
A personal reflection on mental overload, scattered thinking and the power of choosing one priority to regain focus, progress and confidence.
COVID-19
We left the country for 3 weeks and my wife got Covid! Although initially it was stressful and looked like an awful situation, there have been many benefits. Although I’ve tested negative every day so far, at the end, I’ll detail my daily symptoms.
R&R 2
In R&R, I wrote that I was transitioning between jobs. At the time of writing, I was six months into the job and I’d hit a wall. The timing of my holiday was perfect.
Recalibration
You may have noticed I went dark for a while. I am currently in a transition period, the process of recalibration, learning how to go from teacher to manager. This has challenged the systems I had in place to protect my mental health. More on that later – a bit of background first and someContinue reading “Recalibration”
