This is going to be messy and unorganized, but unfiltered. I know there are people who have had it far worse than I could ever imagine and I feel deeply for anyone who’s gone through any kind of trauma. However, one of the biggest sources of pain and suffering that I see and experience inContinue reading “Trauma”
Tag Archives: depression
Why
I recently went through a mental health crisis. While I encourage you to follow the ideas in this post I wrote previously., I’m going to explain why those resources failed me in the hope that someone who works in mental health sees this and has the power and motivation to do something about it. IContinue reading “Why”
Survival
(Unfiltered post) I’m just coming out of a deep, dark, suicidal depression that’s lasted for the past two weeks or so. I’ve experienced depression since I was a young child and the lesson, I keep receiving from most mental health professionals is that my problems aren’t serious enough. I tend to get waves of suicidalContinue reading “Survival”
Suicidal thoughts
This is my recent personal experience. It’s going to come across as self-centred and dark. However, I’m sharing it so people can understand and get into the mindset of someone going through suicidal thoughts. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, seek professional help immediately. This time is different. Last time I was in despair andContinue reading “Suicidal thoughts”
Hope 2
TLDR: This post deals with suicide. If in immediate danger, call the emergency services phone number or go to the nearest hospital or police station or reach out to a trusted person. If you’re having suicidal thoughts, copy out and follow this template: I commit to staying alive For: If in immediate danger I will:Continue reading “Hope 2”
Precipice
Now I understand my uncle’s struggle—the lack of clarity and support. A heavy mix of guilt and shame, and a brutal, devastating implosion. No logic remains. A lonely stranger in a foreign land. All of this self-deserved. I’m so sorry.
Flying in a pandemic and self-quarantine
New Zealand to Taiwan The following is based on the rules and conditions in March/April 2020. To stay up to date on the current rules, see the links at the end. It has been just over a year since I left New Zealand to move back to Taiwan. This is my experience of flying inContinue reading “Flying in a pandemic and self-quarantine”
Self-analysis – Depression: a “depressive episode”
That was intense. What happened? If you read my last post “Depression: a “depressive episode”” you will see that I found myself in a pretty dark place. Things escalated very quickly to the point I felt unable to control the situation. It had been a long and gradual process that crept up on me andContinue reading “Self-analysis – Depression: a “depressive episode””
Depression: a “depressive episode”
Preface I have very quickly found myself in a deep layer of depression and the only thing I can think to do is to try and write myself out of it. What you are about to read is the mind of someone deep in darkness. I cannot guarantee the quality of this post as itContinue reading “Depression: a “depressive episode””
Dreams
See “Time management” for productivity and efficiency tips. Background When I was younger, I had big dreams and I was uncompromising on achieving these. I did not like the idea of being tied down to a single job or debt-forced to work, unable to take risks, fearful of losing the ability to pay a mortgageContinue reading “Dreams”
Depression: Tiredness
One of the most pervasive symptoms of depression I experience every single day is feeling tired. No matter how many hours of sleep I get, I always feel tired when I wake up and also throughout the day. I have experienced this since I was in high school. Clarity vs brain fog Tiredness affects everything.Continue reading “Depression: Tiredness”
Technology: relationships, mental health and productivity
Technology is wonderful-for education, sharing knowledge, business, and connecting with people you otherwise could not. However, the way we use it is not always in our best interest-for relationships, for our mental health, for productivity. We are always on, yet disconnected from reality, our concentration fragmented.
Depression: how to help
A lot of the stigma that comes with depression is through lack of understanding. It is precisely because of these kinds of statements that I remain fairly anonymous in this journey.
Learn to recognise depression, be kind, be patient, do not judge, build trust, be there. Normalise talking about emotions and mental health.
Triggers and Tools
Actionable steps that have helped me improve my mood:
1. Recognise triggers
2. Develop tools
3. Choose how to spend time wisely
4. Be present
Passion
Think about the last time you spoke to someone who was passionate about something. Their whole face lights up, you can see the fire in their eyes, they have a sparkle…Doors open to people who are passionate about what they do.
What is depression?
Depression is complicated. For me it’s background noise in the everyday-sometimes the volume gets so loud it’s distracting, sometimes you forget it’s there. At the same time it’s an invisible lens that shapes how I see the world. Like seeing the world through shades of only one colour.
Introduction
2020. Life changing for many. When the global pandemic started gathering pace, the atmosphere quickly darkened as borders and businesses were closed or restricted. As lock-downs came into force and economies began to suffer, people began to question the effect on mental health.
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