I’m an addict.
I’ve been making excuses and avoiding confessing it for years. I believed I had things under control.
In truth I’ve stunted my emotional development, hurt people and wasted a lot of time and money amongst the other problems that come with addiction.
I can’t provide advice as I’m still working through my life-long issues.
Generally if you feel guilt or shame about it, it’s a problem. If your gut tells you something’s wrong, your gut is usually correct.
What I can say is that finding a good therapist makes a big difference.
It’s expensive, but cheap compared to the damage I’ve caused myself and others.
So far I’ve only temporarily been able to redirect the addictions to something more positive. However, I’m yet to work through why I have these urges. Maybe then I can be cured (if that’s even possible).
The worst thing you can do is keep it silent as I have for so long. It always grows in the darkness – the cycle of guilt and shame perpetuates the addiction.
I realise there’s a high possibility of stumbling again, but I’m determined to win before it kills me.
There’s liberation talking about it, but a lot of guilt and shame too.
I hope through my failures I can help someone else in their struggle.
Eventually I hope I can tell you how I defeated it.
I’m still here. Still standing.
How are you getting on?
Have you made it through to the other side of addiction?
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